a feeling i cant explain ( CONGRATS)

.... hmmm... well.. i dont know why..
Myabe I am just a bit jealous..
just a bit....

Maybe i shouldnt let it ruin me and make me
abandon my friends..
why should i care about them>?

Its not like i still love him, dont i>>?
hmmm.. i just dont know why i feel this way..

I always say that for him to move on will be my advantage
but what is happening now?
he is moving on but i feel so hurt and the pain is almost unbearable..
I always say to other people that i am happy of what is happening
but honestly i am not..
I feel so dumb.

Its like i am lying to myself..I smile and laugh when i hear someone say that they are getting closer than ever.. but deep inside i wish that i was her..

This is so wrong.. This is what i wanted but why does is it feel so wrong>>??
Do i want him back? NO!!!

Crazy or not i will bear with the pain.. i should.

My heart right now is like a sponge... just a little squeeze and the water inside will flow..
I feel so stupid.. why do i feel these things>?? these arent right.
:(

I just wish them all the best. I wasnt able to give him all the he wants so i wish that guia could give him everything he wants. :(

CONGRATS!! :) Wish you all the best..

hmm i am so stupid.. haha its like someone would actually read this., haha

but anyway.. take care of him ok>>??

^^ God bless and Good luck to you both..^^

prize live!!!

I just found an amazing site..
Its called prize live..

U can earn a lot even if u are just at home..
so why not try and make ur own account??

just click the link below and boom! u will be directed to the said site ^^
I'm doing it now so why wont u try it^^

God.. my father.. my brother my best friend...

In times when i was down.. in times when i got hurt.. HE was always there... looking at me and telling me its gonna be okay...

Sometimes i don't listen to HIM.. because i sometimes put my brain first rather than my faith and feelings.. 

This is my mistake.. and i want to change it.. I am really thankful for  HIM for the love and care HE has given me.. HE is my savior ... my friend.. my father..

I know that HE will never leave me alone... HE will always be there and HE will always love me... I know that those painful times were just obstacles that i need to overcome to be more closer to HIM.. I want to thank HIM for giving me a wonderful family.. A family that loves me and understands me for whatever i do...

I've been through a lot and HE helped me to be strong and now here i am .. ready to face the challenges of life... 

YOU!! do u believe in HIM??? Do u think that HE is with you all the time... If you ask me.. i'd totally say "ES HE is always by our side.. and he will never ever leave us alone... even until the end of time.. ^^

Always keep HIM in your heart.. Always... God bless u sisters and brothers... 

REUNITED

Just got home from LAKAN PAKALS POOLSIDE...

I had so much fun with Faith, Glen, MQ, Rheal, Ruffa, Jherra, Jen, and eloise.. i hope charlene was there...

It feels good to be reunited with them :)

hala cge pagtutuk tutuk pa mo para magka.away2 .. haro diyos ko!! ng dahil sa tutuk nag.away ang akong mga manghud.. kaluoy tawon,.,.,. pewo ok ra to,.,.,.

Unya ang piso?? nakit.an ra jud tawon,.. hahha

DONT FORGET about the scene when sir hangad asked me how was my relaTION WITH **********.. HAHAH we dont even have a relationship that is more than friends.. haha ..

CURRENT STATE: typing this post in my blog... I dont know if someone else rather than me is reading these stuff.. hahaha well, at least it makes me express the things that i want to express..

GOOD NIGHT!!!!

lets rejoice!!!

hmm.. am i tired?? yeah i guess so..

After months of trying to digest in my brain that there is still a chance..
hmm I end up looking like a fool.. We'll i guess thats the point of LIVING.. u know? I kinda thank GOD for giving me the opportunity of having this experience cu z now i know that i am not always right,.. people around me try to protect me and it makes me feel that i am safe.. and i kinda like that,..

dedicated to : YOU


Maybe after two months.. I am gonna have a new refreshing life.. A life with my family.. with my friends.. with the people i love around me and nothing,, NOTHING will ever ruin the happiness that i will feel when that time comes.

I know its a bit sloppy if i say that i am gonna cry when we part.. but its true.. after high school, i want all of you to soar high.. do the things you want to do and just be yourself.. I believe in all of you.. I've been ur classmate for 3 years now and if i can i still want to be ur classmate cuz u know:? being in our batch makes me feel that even how hard our lessons, our projects our assignments are, just seeing your smiles and hearing ur laughs makes me feel happy and complete..

I hope that i/n the future i will see each and everyone of you and may we all have a happy senior year..

dedicated to : my girl friends and boy friends in the third year level school year 2010-2011 in TCNHS

new song

I

G, D, Em, C

You and I were destined for each other

But maybe I broke everything apart

And now that I realize

                                                                                    D

It was my fault im sorry but please listen to me when I say

Chorus:

C,G,Em,D

I Love you and I wish you’d come back

I’ll treat you good and I’ll never fight back

I will never sleep while were texting at night

And I promise to love you right

Just please come back to me and be mine

II

Every time I look at my phone

The memories come back to me and hit me like thunder

I feel the pain every time I remember

The times when you say that you love me

And then I realize that those times can never happen again’

Bridge

Please be mine again... and I promise I’ll hold u tight

I love you babe oh please…

speechless

I 'll never talk again ohhhh
And I'll never love again ohhh
I'll never write a song won't even sing along.. You've left me speechless ohhh.


This song really hits me.. I just wanna shut my mouth and just watch them come and go..
I dont understand myself but life goes on and if he's not for me then i'll let go and walk away.. (hala ka.emo ani uit.. haha nahimuot ko sa ako self.. "LAHI RA JUD NI!" haha)

so i got home from Samal.. Very stressful pero enjoy au... :) I had so much fun with all the participant from our school :)

isa ka pangutana siguro na nasa inyo mind karon kung nganong nag.emote ko well, ang ako lng matubag.. " Lahi ra jud ning nafefeel nako" haha lol..