a feeling i cant explain ( CONGRATS)

.... hmmm... well.. i dont know why..
Myabe I am just a bit jealous..
just a bit....

Maybe i shouldnt let it ruin me and make me
abandon my friends..
why should i care about them>?

Its not like i still love him, dont i>>?
hmmm.. i just dont know why i feel this way..

I always say that for him to move on will be my advantage
but what is happening now?
he is moving on but i feel so hurt and the pain is almost unbearable..
I always say to other people that i am happy of what is happening
but honestly i am not..
I feel so dumb.

Its like i am lying to myself..I smile and laugh when i hear someone say that they are getting closer than ever.. but deep inside i wish that i was her..

This is so wrong.. This is what i wanted but why does is it feel so wrong>>??
Do i want him back? NO!!!

Crazy or not i will bear with the pain.. i should.

My heart right now is like a sponge... just a little squeeze and the water inside will flow..
I feel so stupid.. why do i feel these things>?? these arent right.
:(

I just wish them all the best. I wasnt able to give him all the he wants so i wish that guia could give him everything he wants. :(

CONGRATS!! :) Wish you all the best..

hmm i am so stupid.. haha its like someone would actually read this., haha

but anyway.. take care of him ok>>??

^^ God bless and Good luck to you both..^^