Hmmm funny, but history truly repeats itself...

I know what your thinking.. this is tooo personal but hey.. this is quite real..

I was talking with some of my friends about you know.. personal stuff.. hahaa (LOL)
Then in came to the point where my "life" was the topic.. oh God thank you for making me strong!!..
After that stressful conversation about my very unsuccessful life, We then went to our house...

Hmmm.. AWKWARD!!!!!! hahaha I love that word.. hahah thats what i felt after a couple of seconds... ahhaha i've never felt so awkward in my life.! ahaha.. but then again, i was able to overcome such unhappy moment...

I was thinking by myself after my friends went home and i realize.. (i told one of my friends about this) THAT HISTORY REPEATED ITSELF.... whooo.. wow! who couldve known that my previous experience would be his current experience... I thought i was the only one foolish about that LojknOhihVghgvEhh thing.. but hey.. i guess he is too.. maybe not so major like mine but.. still.. i'm so sorry..

I never thought that I was a big deal to him.. I thought.. hmm how dumb of me..!! Foolish me.. But i dont want to go back.. I' sorry I dont know how to walk backwards.. i just want to move forward.. SORRY...

A little privacy please??

hmm the day started fine.. All was well and some of my friends sent me a text message last night to go to the dance practice.. haha I was the first one to be at the practice venue... My group mates were still not there so i made friends with the guards at the venue..It was so much fun talking to them...

And then my group mates arrived at the venue... we were less than half of the group so we decided to go to the house and plan for the dance choreography... I had so much fun with my friends though presence of some made it awkward for me to move too much.. :( (im sorry about this.. but this is what i feel right now)

After all that, I downloaded some songs and here i am now.. typing what happened today


till next post!!

sem break!!

The best week of the year!!! sem break!!

After weeks of frustration and stressful projects, i now have a stress-free and all-day-sleep week..

Yesterday, i was with my lil'bro to his field trip and man was it fun...

First they went to the science centrum.. well, the machines there were not new to me but it was still fun,..

next we went to the Philippine eagle... Who could've known that monkeys were sooo cute... and dont forget about the very photogenic eagle named ALEX..

Lastly we went to the mall... Me, my lil'bro and my cousin played at the 4th floor of SM and it was sooo fun... We tried to get a stuffed toy from the crate machine but sadly, out of luck..

I'll be uploading pics of our adventure at my face book account so better check it out.. hahah see yah!!

confused..''

Despite all those sufferings and hurtful things that happened in my life, i will still smile and be happy 

OK.. so i was planning to type a new and more interesting post today...
I was typing a lot of titles and i came up of putting just one word for the title and my title today is "confused"..


Why confused??? well.... these past few days..I've been thinking about things that i don't tell my friends...
After days of thinking, i came to the conclusion that i really don't fit in.. hm... i fell that i am always out of place.. I feel like i live in a world where i wasn't supposed to be.. Like it was a mistake that i am here..


hm i know my Father, our God, never does any mistake but why do i feel like this?? 
Maybe its just me.. Maybe its my mistake.. maybe i DON'T want to be here.. or something like that..


I like my friends.. but why is this feeling of out of place.. hunting me,...Its trying to convince me to go.. to go to a place where i will feel more accepted and where i will feel that i belong..


I just wish this feeling would change cuz if it wont, I don't know what will happen next..


Until next blog!!

just be yourself???

Today is the day of our examination... 
Last night, I slept probably at 12 or 1 am..
Frustrated, I took a bath and tried to absorb the words in the reviewer so that there would be a chance that i can pass the test... Some of the words were sucked into my brain but many did not.. I was so bothered by other things that i wasnt able to concentrate in studying..


So here i am now.. typing my post about being myself... why?


This is the whole story..


Last night.. my groupmates went to my classmates house to do our thesis.. I told them before i went home that i will attend to the making of our thesis so i asked my nanny to help me tell my dad...she said that it was too late and my dad would freak out... with the guts in me.. i went to the door and shivered.. i asked nanny to text a friend that was there in the making .. the text said that i cant go so if possible, they can give me somthing i could do...no reply.. i waited untill almost 1 am for anyone from my group going online.. but there was none so i went to sleep




and here i am now at school... trying to convince myself to be just me..... 


I even posted at my notes that:


Dont try to fit in...
 just be yourself.. even if it is hard to be out of place, atleast you will never have any doubts :)


i guess this is right but its very hard to feel that your out of place... its so confusing...


I guess i just gotta go with the flow of life and move on...




Until my next blog!!! (i hope i will pass the exam *fingers crossed*) 

Boy,You gotta let go

My day started a little fuzzy..I felt like i was going to do the worst thing i could do in my life but I was so desperate that i didn't think of any doubt and walked out the door saying goodbye to my parents, my brother and everyone inside our home...

So i step foot into the room.. but no one alarming was in sight so i attended to other matters... And then something.. maybe someone alarmed me and i began to keep quiet... Knowing that we will take a review of the first subject, i let the nervousness occupy my mind..

Before I arrived at the school, i already notified him about the news.. and i didn't receive any reply.. so i didn't bother..

After the test and after a couple of hours.. he called me.. explaining and asking me about things.. I answer but he wanted me to elaborate more.. He keeps asking and asking and i keep on answering him with the same answer...

And today it ends.. and a new life starts..... i don't want to have any regrets..

Maybe he is right.. that i don't care with others feelings (or something like that) ... or i change.. hmm .. i don't know..

what i know now... is that no relationship will work out for me so better not expose myself to those stuff!!!

Ahahahahhahaha......

me...me...me...

so who am i? 

Well... i am a very simple girl.. 

what i want is only respect from other people.

I know that respect is something you dont ask for but what u earn.. 

But let me ask you a question,,, if u respect a person, is that person obliged to respect u too..

lets just leave that question behind and start in getting to know me :)

Personal info

name: A R Timogtimog

Online name: Mikon Houganteki/ Arisa Takemoto/ Caroline Simone Montegue

age: 14

address: Somewhere in the lovely Philippines

Zodiac sign: Pisces

Mothers name:-- Arceli 

Fathers name: --Raul

siblings: (only 1)-- Zoe (boy)

contact details:

--online accounts--

-----facebook: ar_angelique@yahoo.com

-----yahoo: ar_angelique@yahoo.com

-----friendster.com: ar_prs@ymail.com

-----tagged: ar_angelique@yahoo.com

-----twitter: ar_angelique@yahoo.com (mz_sacrifice)

-----perf: ar_angelique@yahoo.com

contact numbers:

--cellphone: +639397642393

MY faves!!!!!!!

--colors: pink, sky blue, black, lavender, red,...

--animals: snake, dog, cat, rabbit :)

--food: everything that has chocolate and everything thats sweet

--to do: composing, singing, talking with friends, spending time alone.. :)

This is everything about me but if u want to know me better then might as well talk with me personally :) i am very approachable :)

till next post!!