Live and Let GOD

For quite sometime now,
ive been trapped in the cage of the past
ive been locked in the room of despair and
Ive been mourning about the death of yesterday. . .

I didnt let go of the past and i let it hurt me badly
I lied and lied until now i'm broken...
every time i lie about what i feel,
it breaks me like i am a piece of stick in the great tree of life..

Ive been covering the truth with smiles and anger...
I never asked myself why?
Why do i want to protect myself by hurting myself?
and why cant i let go..?

I am honestly tired of hiding..
Hiding behind the curtains of mistakes.. pain...and depression
I hope one day you will see...
That i am stronger.. braver and happier cuz

I Live and Let GOD!

Finding my purpose is hard.. yes it is
but i am willing to move forward to see it clearly
I pledge to live with God and praise for God
I may commit mistakes but i know my Father will always be there.. just sitting there waiting for me to ask forgiveness and start an new leaf

I know it is not too late..
i know i could still find the light
I know i still could move one..
you know why?
cuz my Father told me so..


He told me that i could still change
that i could still live a life of happiness, love and hope..
I just have to

~~~~~Live and Let GOD~~~~~

smile =]

Aal isz well

in life there are ups and downs..
it depends on the person if he/she will take
every failure as a challenge to improve him/herself..

Maybe i have been covering the sadness i feel with fake smiles
but now i want to TRULY smile.. i want to be happy..
I want to be contented of what i have.. and so i will now wake forward
and leave the painful and sorrowful yesterday.

I WANT TO SMILE=]

im so sorry...

For the past few days.. I've been so rude to you..
i've been so insensitive.. I've been so hurtful.
But all of these are for you...
I want you to be happy now.. bcuz u deserve to be..


I only ask you one thing..
Please do what makes you happy now because
Its very hard for me to adjust while you are near to me...

I know you will be happy with her.. ^^
"I can feel it... Its like you were meant to be"
( hmmm if i said that.. i was probably lying)
I hate saying that you are compatible...
Maybe i'm just jealous because we weren't like that when we were close..

But yeah,,... i know that its the right thing .. I should let you go.. and i should do it..
It was my stupid fault of hurting you now i gotta pay the price and get hurt`..


Im so sorry if i snob you for the past few days...
I'm just trying to do my part so that you will be happy ^^


I just have only one request... BE HAPPY WITH HER >.<

i surrender Father... T_T

hmm... crying again.. stupid me!!

But then again at least now i know why people always say that pride is very dangerous...
My pride has cost a lot... My pride was the reason i suffer...
My pride is the reason why i look so stupid right now..

Im tired of being so stupid about stuff that i am good at when its about other people..
How could i give them wonderful advises and not fix mine?
I guess i was wrong in some stuff... and yeah i regret some of it.. but my pride tells me to just go on and let go.. even how hard it is.. just go... even tears overflow let go... maybe someday when i am not holding ur hand anymore... God will fill the spaces instead of you..

Its stupid how i manage to smile when im sad, to laugh when inside i am crying.. to rejoice when everybody knows im weeping..

I know i am doing the wrong thing.. but its better this way isn't it? I've always done this kind of thing for many times so its really not new to me but yeah i admit it kinda has a different and more painful impact but duh... i can handle this .. ^^

I know Father will be there for me always.. He will help me... I surrender my life to you Father...

a feeling i cant explain ( CONGRATS)

.... hmmm... well.. i dont know why..
Myabe I am just a bit jealous..
just a bit....

Maybe i shouldnt let it ruin me and make me
abandon my friends..
why should i care about them>?

Its not like i still love him, dont i>>?
hmmm.. i just dont know why i feel this way..

I always say that for him to move on will be my advantage
but what is happening now?
he is moving on but i feel so hurt and the pain is almost unbearable..
I always say to other people that i am happy of what is happening
but honestly i am not..
I feel so dumb.

Its like i am lying to myself..I smile and laugh when i hear someone say that they are getting closer than ever.. but deep inside i wish that i was her..

This is so wrong.. This is what i wanted but why does is it feel so wrong>>??
Do i want him back? NO!!!

Crazy or not i will bear with the pain.. i should.

My heart right now is like a sponge... just a little squeeze and the water inside will flow..
I feel so stupid.. why do i feel these things>?? these arent right.
:(

I just wish them all the best. I wasnt able to give him all the he wants so i wish that guia could give him everything he wants. :(

CONGRATS!! :) Wish you all the best..

hmm i am so stupid.. haha its like someone would actually read this., haha

but anyway.. take care of him ok>>??

^^ God bless and Good luck to you both..^^

prize live!!!

I just found an amazing site..
Its called prize live..

U can earn a lot even if u are just at home..
so why not try and make ur own account??

just click the link below and boom! u will be directed to the said site ^^
I'm doing it now so why wont u try it^^

God.. my father.. my brother my best friend...

In times when i was down.. in times when i got hurt.. HE was always there... looking at me and telling me its gonna be okay...

Sometimes i don't listen to HIM.. because i sometimes put my brain first rather than my faith and feelings.. 

This is my mistake.. and i want to change it.. I am really thankful for  HIM for the love and care HE has given me.. HE is my savior ... my friend.. my father..

I know that HE will never leave me alone... HE will always be there and HE will always love me... I know that those painful times were just obstacles that i need to overcome to be more closer to HIM.. I want to thank HIM for giving me a wonderful family.. A family that loves me and understands me for whatever i do...

I've been through a lot and HE helped me to be strong and now here i am .. ready to face the challenges of life... 

YOU!! do u believe in HIM??? Do u think that HE is with you all the time... If you ask me.. i'd totally say "ES HE is always by our side.. and he will never ever leave us alone... even until the end of time.. ^^

Always keep HIM in your heart.. Always... God bless u sisters and brothers... 

REUNITED

Just got home from LAKAN PAKALS POOLSIDE...

I had so much fun with Faith, Glen, MQ, Rheal, Ruffa, Jherra, Jen, and eloise.. i hope charlene was there...

It feels good to be reunited with them :)

hala cge pagtutuk tutuk pa mo para magka.away2 .. haro diyos ko!! ng dahil sa tutuk nag.away ang akong mga manghud.. kaluoy tawon,.,.,. pewo ok ra to,.,.,.

Unya ang piso?? nakit.an ra jud tawon,.. hahha

DONT FORGET about the scene when sir hangad asked me how was my relaTION WITH **********.. HAHAH we dont even have a relationship that is more than friends.. haha ..

CURRENT STATE: typing this post in my blog... I dont know if someone else rather than me is reading these stuff.. hahaha well, at least it makes me express the things that i want to express..

GOOD NIGHT!!!!

lets rejoice!!!

hmm.. am i tired?? yeah i guess so..

After months of trying to digest in my brain that there is still a chance..
hmm I end up looking like a fool.. We'll i guess thats the point of LIVING.. u know? I kinda thank GOD for giving me the opportunity of having this experience cu z now i know that i am not always right,.. people around me try to protect me and it makes me feel that i am safe.. and i kinda like that,..

dedicated to : YOU


Maybe after two months.. I am gonna have a new refreshing life.. A life with my family.. with my friends.. with the people i love around me and nothing,, NOTHING will ever ruin the happiness that i will feel when that time comes.

I know its a bit sloppy if i say that i am gonna cry when we part.. but its true.. after high school, i want all of you to soar high.. do the things you want to do and just be yourself.. I believe in all of you.. I've been ur classmate for 3 years now and if i can i still want to be ur classmate cuz u know:? being in our batch makes me feel that even how hard our lessons, our projects our assignments are, just seeing your smiles and hearing ur laughs makes me feel happy and complete..

I hope that i/n the future i will see each and everyone of you and may we all have a happy senior year..

dedicated to : my girl friends and boy friends in the third year level school year 2010-2011 in TCNHS

new song

I

G, D, Em, C

You and I were destined for each other

But maybe I broke everything apart

And now that I realize

                                                                                    D

It was my fault im sorry but please listen to me when I say

Chorus:

C,G,Em,D

I Love you and I wish you’d come back

I’ll treat you good and I’ll never fight back

I will never sleep while were texting at night

And I promise to love you right

Just please come back to me and be mine

II

Every time I look at my phone

The memories come back to me and hit me like thunder

I feel the pain every time I remember

The times when you say that you love me

And then I realize that those times can never happen again’

Bridge

Please be mine again... and I promise I’ll hold u tight

I love you babe oh please…